I put together a little video from our first few weeks with Haze. It's amazing watching her grow and change a little bit everyday. We're absolutely smitten.
Here we are, today I'm 39 weeks and 2 days. I've been so bad at posting this last trimester, life has just been so busy. I've had a lot more time than when I was working at Matchstick to enjoy a day off here and there, but that usually consists of running around doing errands and cleaning our apartment. I've been busy queueing up posts for June on T&T so Lindsay isn't completely left to carry it on her own! It's been a lot of fun though, I'm cherishing these last days/weeks on my own, going on a lot of walks, and eating lots of ice cream. Summer has suddenly hit this last week, I'm trying to soak up lots of time in the park, it's amazing.
This is Dan's last week of work and then he has a few weeks off, I'm really looking forward to that. Especially this time of year, the last 2 Summer's Dan has worked his ass off. He really hasn't enjoyed Summer days in the city, so I'm excited to get a taste of that with him this Summer, we're planning on lots of beach days, park days, and neighbourhood walks.
This pregnancy has been a bit of an emotional and crazy time. With my mom going through everything she has been with her cancer, it's been really hard. I always imagined the simplest of events like going shopping together, picking out things, etc. But that just hasn't been possible. At first I was so angry, it just didn't seem fair. I felt like there were so many things I simply deserved. It's made me really learn to appreciate what I have, we really deserve nothing. My mother is the most amazing, strong, gentle, wise, wonderful woman. She has shown me what it is to be a mother. Life is such a gift, I am so blessed to have a mother and father who have instilled the most important things in their children. They've taught me to work hard, but to have fun, don't take life too seriously, but cherish the important things. Family always comes first, appreciate what you have, but also know nothing on earth matters, store up your treasures in heaven. Relationships before things. I admire my parents so much seeing them walk through this journey. I hope in 30 years Dan and my relationship is as strong as theirs. One thing Dan always says to me when I'm upset or start comparing myself to what other people have, is "this is your story," no one but yours. I'm ok with my story. Some days it seems like a happily ever after, and some days it's quite the opposite. But it's mine, no one else's, and I'm so grateful to be able to have one.
This Christmas was special, it was so relaxing, quiet, and restful. We had a nice day on Christmas eve at the Klenners with Dan's parents, sister and her husband. We had a nice breakfast, sat by the fire, and then cooked up a big feast! It was so amazing to have a few days off! After Dan's crazy few weeks of gigs and mixing in his studio it was so great to just slow down, watch movies and hang out with our families. We slept over at my parents house Christmas eve and woke up to stockings! So good, these are a highlight for Dan and he talks about them all year because he didn't grow up with them! I love that we all still pile on my mom and dad's bed and open our stockings one by one, talking about each item. It's so fun. I think this may be me and Dan's last year, because we always talked about us getting them until we have kids, so next Christmas we will have a 7 month old (whaaaa?) who knows, maybe we can talk our parents into doing a combined one ;)
Oh, one thing that's fun, Christmas day I was 18 weeks! I had just started feeling the baby kick for real so much that week, even could feel it with my hand a few times which was so surreal. We were up early on Christmas morning, laying in bed and just enjoying being up and having no where to be! Baby started kicking so much, and Dan finally felt it with his hand, and put his face on my belly and got a nice little kick in the face. What a perfect way to start off Christmas day. It was magical.
Christmas morning sunrise, it was such a beautiful day!
Love my family, so glad we snagged this photo, we never get any together!