I'm 39 weeks along today and can't believe we're going to meet baby girl SO soon, I'm really hoping it's this week. I'm feeling very uncomfortable and chasing this kid around is just a lot for me by the end of the day, I am pooped, actually by about 10am most days I'm feeling pooped, let's be real.
You guys, we got our wall bed installed last week and it has completely changed our space. We looked around a lot for the best option and went with the Penelope from Resource Furniture and I am so glad we did. I'll share more on why we chose this one and why I think it's the best soon over on Treasures & Travels, because there are really SO many good things about it. Over the last month we've changed almost all of the furniture in our living room and it's so much better. Everything is a lot smaller and space efficient and it just makes the room feel so much bigger. Plus with us moving out of our office I got to take the pink couch home, I'm pretty happy about that ;)
We've had some change of plans over the last few days with our birth plan. Up until a few days ago we were planning a home birth, I was so, so excited. Honestly, I was really looking forward to the birth, to be at home, and to have Hazel here. I had the birth tub kit all ready to go, our home birth kit from our midwife was sitting there, our plan was in place. Everything so far has been great, ultrasounds have been great, blood pressure is low and all the midwives said I'm the perfect candidate! I was hesitant at the beginning, but once we decided we wanted this I was all in. At my appointment last week they said I was measuring smaller, so they sent me in for an ultrasound to make sure everything was good. Baby's size was great, she's just sitting lower and so the measurement was different and she's looking strong and healthy.
They did find something else that was a small concern. It has to do with the ductus arteriosus (a blood vessel in baby's heart). It's not something affecting her right now but there's the small chance that when she's born it won't close properly which adds the risk factor. Knowing all the facts and after having some really good chats with our midwife and doctor through our amazing birth program, I'm feeling so much better. Getting the phone call and knowing the home birth was off was a hard thing to come to terms with. Getting the news that there was something "not completely normal" is just terrifying. Especially because birth is so much about your mind, and focusing and letting go of fear. After that phone call, I was FULL of fear. I spent the day in tears and feeling terrified to birth this little girl and going over the worst case scenarios. I let myself mourn the dream of the ideal home birth and had no choice but to just trust God. When it comes down to it, all I want is a healthy baby. Whatever that takes. I want her to come into this world in a peaceful environment and if she needs some extra care, I'm SO lucky to be able to birth her in an incredible women's hospital with the best care. After a few days of letting it all sink in, and talking over the new birth plan, I'm feeling so excited. I'm ready for whatever is to come and trusting and believing God knows what's goin' on. "For God has not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind." - 2 Timothy 1:7