Last week Dan and I took a little trip to Halfmoon Bay on the Sunshine Coast! A long awaited holiday for our 5 year anniversary we've been looking forward to for months. We hopped on the ferry on Tuesday afternoon and were off on a much needed get away. Since mom passed away on August 6 we were living at my dad's house for a few weeks. It was such a special time of all the kids and grandkids being under one roof. So many family meals together and good time spent, it was really special. We only had one night home and were off again. Hazel has been such a trooper through it all, adjusting so well to the weird sleeping situations and naps on hospital couches. We were both so excited to get away and have a few days before settling back into "normal" life without mom. A new normal.
We got there Tuesday evening, and spent the night watching friends with some take out pizza. It was nice, we went down to the water before bed and splashed our hands through the water and saw the magical luminesence light up the water, something I've always wanted to see! We slept in 'til 11 and went on a nice long walk, got ice cream, swam, and bought some local prawns to cook up for dinner.
We had a bit of a scare on Wednesday night. Dan started to cook up dinner and I nursed Hazel and laid her on the bed where normally she would drift off to sleep. I noticed she was so squirmy and unsettled for a few minutes, she just wasn't calming down. I picked her up and noticed she was so hot. I could feel her little body shaking like she was shivering pretty intensely. I called Dan over to see if it was just me overreacting, because almost instantly my heart started beating so fast. I think if we were home i would feel a little more at ease. But knowing we were in a small town, far from anyone I started to panic. It's crazy how being in the thick of hard experiences with death and sickness over the last 8 months, especially in the last two months my head just instantly goes to the worst place. We looked at each other and knew something was wrong. I tried to get some tylenol down her and we called the nurses hotline to see what we should do. They told us to take her to emergency as fast as we could. We were so shaken up. Two weeks earlier we had gotten a call in the middle of the night that it was time, mom wouldn't last too much longer. In a similar panicked state we gathered our things as quickly as possible and got in the car. I knew Hazel would be ok, but our our hearts and emotions were in such a fragile state that the smallest thing could throw us off.
We booked it to Sechelt which was about 20 minutes away. I sat in the backseat singing and trying to keep Hazel calm, she was moaning and whimpering, it felt like forever. They got her in so quickly and then came the poking, blood test in the foot, the arm, can't find a vein, poke poke poke. Try the other arm, take her blood pressure, it was so hard to watch. She screamed, we tried to comfort her, we were all so tired. Finally by about midnight they figured it out and ordered the antibiotics. More needles and the loudest screams, we finally left by 3:30am and both felt wacked. We had to catch an early ferry because they wanted her admitted into Lions Gate in Vancouver for at least a day to monitor her because she's so young. We got to our place and packed up all our stuff and tried to get some sleep. Her fever came back and she started doing the same sort of moaning thing again. We got tylenol down her and by now we both realized the sandwiches we ate at the hospital weren't sitting well. Perfect. Icing on the cake. Dan was up for pretty much the next two hours on the toilet. It didn't hit me as bad because I only ate half, and we've learned his stomach is a loooot weaker than mine. We were up at 8 to head to the ferry and off to another hospital.
Thankfully Thursday was a lot more uneventful. A long day in the hospital, a lot of waiting, and more shots. It's been a long week of antibiotics I have to force down poor Hazel's throat every 6 hours. I'm beyond thankful for a healthy and much happier baby. I'm excited that the weather is cooling down and we're coming into a new season. This Summer has been so bittersweet. The highest highs with welcoming little Hazel so perfectly into our lives. and the lows of losing my mama. oh mama, you're so missed.