This is my favourite tradition of ours, and one of our only traditions as a new little family. We love driving out to Langley to wander around the beautiful tree farm looking for the perfect tree! We have a tiny apartment, so we're looking for a perfect - tiny tree. Skinny and tall is just right for us. This was last Monday, and today we spent the morning watching White Christmas and decorating the tree, it definitely put us in the Christmas spirit despite these busy days! Dan's been working overtime, December always tends to be a hectic one for him as a musician and we usually don't see much of each other until Christmas Eve! This year is proving to be just as crazy, so we're enjoying our Mondays off together getting right into the holiday fun.
I think this is going to be one of my favourites for years to come, and one we will be sure to take again over the next few years! Cutest pink bear in all the land.
It's really nice having fun things to look forward to, and to be able to enjoy during this season. It's proving to be a hard one. The loss of mom feels heavier than it has in the last four months. This last week has been filled with a lot of hard moments and a lot of tears. Our family is going away for a few days over Christmas which I think will be really nice. I've had the same Christmas Day my whole life, I've always woken up at my parents house on Christmas morning and known exactly how the day will go. I love tradition.
I was thinking today about how we told my mom we were pregnant. We were talking about stockings, as we did a lot, because we were only supposed to get them once after we were married, but every year dan convinced them to do it once more. I think the year before they said they would keep doing them until we had kids. So last year, on Thanksgiving we brought up the topic of stockings, i remember saying "mom, this is the last year your'e going to do stockings for us!" She looked at me with shock, and confusion. That's when I told her we were pregnant, I said "next year we will have a baby!" She cried, jumped up and so did my dad. It was so special. It's hard to believe that was just over a year ago. She was so normal. Healthy, and full of life.
I feel really grateful that Hazel is here. She is such a gift. God's timing is perfect. It's her first Christmas and I have a whole lot to look forward to, starting new traditions as a family. Celebrating her first Christmas, seeing her look up at the tree with such awe and clumsily crawl toward it, grasping the branches in her hands. She brings a lot of joy to the season, and I'm so thankful for that.